As the days and weeks and months and years go by, my personal self-healing, self-expansion, and transformation has hit a climax! You know when you are in “the middle of going through something” and you just don’t see it clearly, you are merely re-acting? I WAS re-acting for years instead of claiming a life full of goodness and creativity and fun. I was hung up on who I thought I should be, what i thought i should be doing, making things perfect, and holding onto ideas that did not match who I was on the inside. I created a lot of stress and inner turmoil for myself, but I didn’t know any better. That is what I was taught and what marinated into my brain over the years. Today I am “past the chaos” and the issues at hand and have a much different view and vision and perception and reality of what was and what is. I am so thankful for sticking out my cancer healing process and continue to work at myself daily so I don’t fall back to what once was. My decision to heal naturally was THE BEST DECISION I ever made and it was needed in order for me to move myself to such a place of clarity, freedom, ease and happiness and state of pure love. I am feeling SO different on the inside and it is starting to reflect on the outside. My outlook is how to spend my energy on the future and how I want to build the 2nd half of my life. I lean into the good feeling things each day and have successfully been retraining my brain and my perception of life in general.
The ONE true magical key to my journey has been LOVE. It might sound so basic and obvious and perhaps cheesy, but, I think we learn all the definitions of love as we grow up and then we have to finally start making our own decisions on what that embodies for us as individuals. Love feels good, not like a struggle or control or people pleasing or being a martyr or not expressing your true self without feeling guilt or shame . When you are lacking love you are not in alignment with your self which is your soul/spirit which always leads with love. Each day I am learning daily how to love better, be love, receive love, and attract love. It is so true that where you are in life is what you vibrate and THAT is ultimately what you attract into your life. I was continually in a state of fear and that was driving my life into a state of chaos and unhappiness. New definitions of love and realizing love has gradually moved my life in a different direction. The tool of LOVE is magical and life changing. LOVE is in every aspect of our life… most importantly our relationship with ourself. Learning to really love myself and everything about myself and accept where I am has made all the difference. Sounds so easy but for many layers of reasons and life stuff it was hard for me to understand and lead with love. OR I just had the wrong perceptions and definitions and it really messed stuff up! Lack of love delayed all the goodness that continues to come my way nowadays. I did not know how to open up and receive and be and give love easily. I essentially was in my own way. Well at least I am starting to feel it and figure it out and apply! So happy! Now love feels good!
As I coach clients and talk to people about health and being the best versions of ourself, this always come up! I know I am not alone and can now find ways to express and communicate the ideas behind self love and how to start chipping away at really loving ourself and others. I guess it’s a state of being that society is experiencing and we all just need a little nudge and guidance and support and love to move more towards complete love at every moment in time. It makes all the difference and it feels really fricking good! Why do we beat ourselves up and critique ourself endlessly and how do we learn to do all this bogus stuff to ourself? I know some of the answers and also know part of the key is just to focus forward and not dwell and go back to the past too long cuz the past is the past and its not reality. We are the creators of our life and love is the leading force that can help us live happily. So the next time you wanna bitch and moan about what is going on or the weather or what happened yesterday or who did what to you, remember this is not love and not helping you be happy and full of love. I am not saying be fake and cheery and happy when you don’t feel like it, I am saying think about what you bring to the table each and every moment and how that can make a difference when you lead with love. Surround your self with love and let LOVE be in the air at all times, then you will always be love! If it’s not in the air, get away quickly and go to where love is! Just my 2cents on love here and now! Thanks for reading and listening.