Nowadays, the Monday morning and every morning ritual is no longer what should I be, I need to be more successful, I need to make more money, I need to do more for others, I need to , I need to , I need to, everything a yucky feeling inside. INSTEAD, it’s how can I start my day off great and create the best feeling day ever! Often, I wake up 1 hr earlier than I need to start my actual schedule of a day , I meditate, listen to some affirmations or positive thinking videos, hang out with the cat, drink my 3 glasses of water, shower, put on my body oils, brush my hair , then check my email before leaving the door. Its’ a pretty good AM shift every day. Day by day and week by week my brain shifts more quickly into positive mode and what I am appreciative of rather than what was wrong and feeling not so good. My cancer journey lit a fire under my ass to figure out how the hell to feel better each day and you know what? I did it! That letting go process proved to be tough but well worth it.
It also came down to relationships AND letting which go has been the hardest task for me this lifetime to date. It has always been hard for me to look at a situation and say out loud and admit to myself that it just was not the best feeling for me. Especially when other people are involved and I love them. My communication skills have slowly improved and hopefully the future holds soul to soul compassionate conversations that are loving and involved around doing what is best for the self and all parties involved. My non-confrontational attitude seemed to hinder me and really did not protect me from what was best. Now I know. Thx 45 years of relationship stuff. Glad to know the 2nd half will be more easy peasy. Taking things personal and being non-reactive proved to be very detrimental and not what was best.
Negative thoughts about myself gathered from people, places, situations, things, environments seemed to also be vibrating and causing much angst for myself. Glad it’s over. Figured it out. On to the next thing. Tami really is kinda pretty and smart and fun and adventurous and playful and ambitious and creative. I think I kinda like her and I am hopeful most see the new shine in my stride. That old vibration is kicked to the side and has delayed years of happy, BUT maybe I needed it to grow fully into who I am now becoming. So excited for the future and what it holds and what I choose to do with it! My vibrations are getting higher and I am including every day “time” to really connect with myself and vibrate to the highest level so I have the best version of me to give away then refuel for the next day.