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So as the days start to pass this summer and my joyful work schedule slows down, I find myself pondering what to do. How to create my 2nd half of life. How to lean towards all the feel good things and stay away from the not so feeling good things. I am realizing how my first half of life was created and how I got here… here as in this super transformational awakening I have been experiencing the past 3 years. I guess realistically it has been a 45 year awakening and the past 3 years have been the most climactic to date. I realize I have really stretched myself to expand as a person, am much more connected with my soul, and am realizing how I was contributing to the way life was and how much more joyful it can be when you just wake up. I did not understand what good felt like and am still working on it. I am finding that just getting out there and participating, existing, enjoying, laughing, connecting, talking with people, soaking up whatever environment you are in, is really the best plan of attack to start the ball rollin towards what you want and what you want to be. I didn’t realize how nonexistent I really felt. I didn’t realize I was hiding in work and behind people. I didn’t realize I had soaked up a bunch of low self- worth and low self-esteem and it effected how I interacted with the world and deeply effected the relationship with myself.
It will be on to the next one, then on to the next one, then on to the next one, experiencing life, moving on , moving forward, and letting all my desires unfold before my eyes. It will be expansion and growth and learning my "self" better so I know how to keep the positive outlook and the feel good stuff in tact. I feel kinda like a newborn and kinda infantile at times right now. It is humbling and vulnerable and a bit uncomfortable at times but well worth the journey. I value my friends and family and look forward to the new people that might vibrate right into my life based on the new me! I am excited to continue this journey and feel lucky that I am still here and present and functioning and smiling and vibrant. So I definitely recommend for everyone to " get all up in it ". Enjoy rather than worry, laugh instead of being critical, smile instead of having grumpy thoughts, move around and enjoy being in your body, be still and feel the high of being connected with soul, and love everybody no matter what. These actions have truly enhanced my life. Being one means being with everyone else because we all come from the same and are the same and breathe the same. Being one means letting yourself stay connected with everybody and everything. Being one means getting all up in it no matter what!
Thx for reading! xo Tami