So one thing that has been a major SHIFT in my life is slowing down my daily process and doing what right now I call "witnessing" everything. I describe it as witnessing rather than my "in the momentness" because it still feels pretty foreign to me. An analogy that is helping me make this shift is creating and tending to these lovely flowers and herbs you see to the left. I feel like it kinda resembles life. I got the herbs as "starters", so they had already grown a bit ( i did not start from seeds) and the pretty colored flowers i got in semi-bloom state and now they are big and colorful and poofy. I like to think of my analogy in depth because I am a virgo and that is what I do. In previous summers I was starting from seeds for my herbs and every summer I failed at producing herbs. Sometimes we just need a little help to get us started in the right direction. So thanks to Gethsemane Gardens in Chicago, I can now cook this summer with Basil, Thyme, Rosemary,Cilantro, and soon to be some Tomatoes! I can't believe it! This whole parallel process in regards to living life has been hard to let go and accept but it feels great when I let people in and get help, kind words, support, or just take the time to actually listen instead of react. So thanks! |
Day by day scenario #2 is working at the gyms. Beginning of this year we opened a 3rd location. Let's call it an expansion. It was different than opening the other 2 gyms because we are in the middle of figuring out a "plan of action" for the old 3rd location but in the meantime we created a fitness studio next door to start expanding. Long story short, I have been put in situations that are challenging the very parts of me that need a fixing. So it was feeling like another battle, which YES I created in my head. I just needed to let go and let things be and quit being a "perfectionista". Hard on myself and hard on others and looking at things negatively but still trying to be positive and hopeful? No life does not work well that way. I had a talk with myself and reminded me that all is good and going as planned. I meditate and surround my brain with the new thought patterns and perceptions and views and the teachings of mystics and gods and gurus and healers to keep my brain in check. Some days I even throw in a coffee to keep me going and a cookie if I am feeling like I need an extra boost in the brain. :) It seems to work. but still working on making it permanent and stick like super glue. I am totally amazed that I can feel amazing one day and then 5% of my evil brain cells take over and can make life seem like a sh++hole in an instant THEN my happy brain cells kick em out and the sunshine emerges all over again. Some days I feel super crazy and maybe I am? This whole training the brain is pretty tricky and some days I just feel sad. Hence the picture to the right. This day it was raining outside and no one showed up for class and I was all alone inside wallowing in emptiness and failure until i kicked my butt out and had another talking with myself. I feel like a parent but the child is me too? wtf Well we are in Chicago and the summer has arrived and our outdoor courtyard is in full bloom with flowers and we can also run our classes outdoors! What a great scenario to get to work in and be part of and see our growth even if the old Tami sometimes gets wrapped up in the slow snowball of change effect. The gyms are doing well and things are progressing and it is nice to be part of 3 thriving businesses! So thanks to all my gymrat homies! Day by day we move and teach and are a good example of change and growth and understanding and support. |

this is my Dad.....

this is my Dad taking a selfie....